I usually am not all that happy, and I think this year has to be the worst, because I just had to lose my best friend only a few days before Christmas, and all of this is completely against my will.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
depressed - Music:EngieRolled
and... my head hurts because of my brother playing his music so loudly and I can't tune it out. ;___;
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
irritated
I dunno. I think maybe so, but I'm not sure what to say... o__o;;
it doesn't matter if you're single or not, whether you want to has kids or not, people should be respected for whatever they want to do. I'm 20 years old, have never been in any kind of relationship with a boy... or girl
and right now, I'm fine with that. I mean, sure it could be nice to has a boyfriend(or girlfriend) someday, but not now. my mom's boyfriend once asked me why I don't has a boyfriend... and made some kinda comments. when honestly, he has no right to be asking me about anything like that. so rude. -__-;;
and my uncle Tom said something about that once, too, though I think it was kinda more in a joking matter... well, either way, I just dismissed it. I do not like people asking me why I don't has a boyfriend, or making any comments regarding that matter. no matter who, that's kinda really rude. and then to say "but you're pretty" or some nonsense... no. stfu and leave me alone. I will do what I want to do, not what others say I should do. at least, in this case.
mom has made comments about me having children... which will not happen, I can safely say that at 20 years old. I'm old enough to know that that won't happen. my aunt's almost 30, and she has no kids.
I may adopt a child someday, but I will not get pregnant and give birth to a child. mainly because the thought of something growing in my body freaks me out, as it always has. it's only freaked me out more over the years. believe me, at this point, nothing would change my mind.
as for this pressure being worse around the holidays... yes, I suppose it would seem that way. not for me personally, but I'm sure it's like that for others... I don't see how it wouldn't be at all, depending on the person, anyway. some people(like me) may not be affected, but yeah.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
tired - Music:URGE ON!! - POLYSICS
hmm... well, I definitely use the internet for a lot more stuff than I used to.
ten years ago, I was only 10... I didn't really start using the internet for anything until I was 13. and then, all I really did was search for pictures and go on Neopets. then when I was 14, I somehow happened upon a certain forum... that really got me started. I discovered many other things because of people that posted on there and... well, yeah. :B
I dunno what else to say. lol
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
blah - Music:Super Rad - The Aquabats!
Christmas :B
for several reasons, not just presents... XD
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Early Afternoon Madam (Chibi-Robo)
so yesterday... no, wait, the day before, I discovered the cuteness of Hiro without his visor or glasses.
YOU MIGHT THINK IT WOULDN'T MAKE MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE, BUT IT DOES.
PROOF:


and without



gahhhhhhhhhhh <3
...lol I'm sure anyone who even reads this will think I'm insane. ^__^
but darn it, I love Polysics, and I love Hiro, and... well, he's cute!! <3
YOU MIGHT THINK IT WOULDN'T MAKE MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE, BUT IT DOES.
PROOF:


and without



gahhhhhhhhhhh <3
...lol I'm sure anyone who even reads this will think I'm insane. ^__^
but darn it, I love Polysics, and I love Hiro, and... well, he's cute!! <3
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
tired - Music:Rovers (Tales of Symphonia)
prolly not until another week
or so... I do shopping real late because I usually don't have time until December.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
tired - Music:Wasabi - Polysics
wtf Twilight
*punches lj in the nonexistant face*
no. Twilight is stupid. how did this end up as something for Writer's Block? srsly
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
excited - Music:NOTHING (and now I'm wondering why...)
no, I haven't found any old friends online. but then again, I don't have an account on any sites where I could easily find them or anything.
not that I'd wanna talk to them again, anyway. they're the ones that abandoned me. so I really have no desire to be their friend again.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
bored
hmm. I dunno lol
I can't really say one thing
I'm scared of bugs, heights and losing people/being alone.
no, I have not tried to overcome any of those things. not really, anyway. I have been scared of bugs forever. especially spiders, omg. >__< me and my aunt would walk, and there were spiders like, EVERYWHERE... omg one time I almost bumped right into one of the webs somewhere... >__< I was shivering all the rest of the way home, that freaked me out. x__X
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
drained - Music:playing Magical Melody.
I can't remember the last time I spent much time watching TV... I'm more likely to sit here playing a game for several hours. even when I was younger, I enjoyed playing video games a lot more than watching TV...
and if I wasn't playing, I was watching my older brother or someone else play. lol
though last year, when I'd go to my grandma's house for about... 2 weeks at a time, every night, I'd watch Noggin for about 4 hours straight. XD from midnight to 3 am. but then I'd get sleepy by the time Gullah Gullah Island was on. XDD
and if I wasn't playing, I was watching my older brother or someone else play. lol
though last year, when I'd go to my grandma's house for about... 2 weeks at a time, every night, I'd watch Noggin for about 4 hours straight. XD from midnight to 3 am. but then I'd get sleepy by the time Gullah Gullah Island was on. XDD
I'd have watched Noggin alllllllll day if I could have. though my friend told me it isn't Noggin anymore... which makes me sad. XD but it's still the same, apparently. WHICH IS GREAT! the old Nick Jr. had all the good shows. so maybe when we move, I will be able to watch it all day. omg *__* but I need to stop calling it Noggin... lol
though... now that makes me wonder if Nick Jr. won't be on in the mornings on the actual Nick channel... D:
I hope that doesn't happen. even though I haven't watched it in ages. since I fell in love with Playhouse Disney and the Imagination Movers... XD that show is great.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:the music in this game.
Polysics
and The Aquabats!
omg to see either of them live would be a dream come true. and yeah, I'd go pretty much anywhere to see them. *__*
and The Aquabats!
omg to see either of them live would be a dream come true. and yeah, I'd go pretty much anywhere to see them. *__*
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
distressed - Music:the music in this game.
no, I wouldn't worry about bad luck
I opened an umbrella in the house a million times before. *shrug*
so as for the mirror, ladder and black cat... whatever. XD
I opened an umbrella in the house a million times before. *shrug*
so as for the mirror, ladder and black cat... whatever. XD
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
bored - Music:VOLA & THE ORIENTAL MACHINE - Fatal Incident (Please Take My Breath Away)
I don't believe in horoscopes
and the description of a Leo isn't really like me at all, I'm pretty much the exact opposite of most of that.
I don't think anyone's ever made an assumption about me because of my sign... XD so I can't say whether that annoys me or not.
and the description of a Leo isn't really like me at all, I'm pretty much the exact opposite of most of that.
I don't think anyone's ever made an assumption about me because of my sign... XD so I can't say whether that annoys me or not.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:夢診断 - VOLA & THE ORIENTAL MACHINE
ooh
the first thing that came to mind was something I like to eat for breakfast... or as a snack
honey nut cheerios
peanut butter
honey
and raisins.
put it all in a big bowl and mix it up.
...I think it's a healthy thing, anyway.
quick and easy, at the very least. mixing is the hard part, though. gotta figure out how to balance the stuff to get it just right. so it's not too hard to mix.
the first thing that came to mind was something I like to eat for breakfast... or as a snack
honey nut cheerios
peanut butter
honey
and raisins.
put it all in a big bowl and mix it up.
...I think it's a healthy thing, anyway.
quick and easy, at the very least. mixing is the hard part, though. gotta figure out how to balance the stuff to get it just right. so it's not too hard to mix.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
nervous - Music:Speed Up - Polysics
so, earlier this morning, I got bored and drew this. because of my friend T.C. lol

whee.

whee.
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
amused - Music:Young OH! OH! - Polysics
hotel. that sounds much better.
plus... INDOOR SWIMMING. omg. that would make me a very happy Emma-chan. :3
I hate camping. :/ unless it's in a camper, but even then, it depends... :/
it's not fun with my grandma Mary, at least. >.< well, maybe with my cousin... and without my brother? that could be nice.
though it wouldn't be as fun now...
...I miss my cousin, Courtney. >:
plus... INDOOR SWIMMING. omg. that would make me a very happy Emma-chan. :3
I hate camping. :/ unless it's in a camper, but even then, it depends... :/
it's not fun with my grandma Mary, at least. >.< well, maybe with my cousin... and without my brother? that could be nice.
though it wouldn't be as fun now...
...I miss my cousin, Courtney. >:
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
calm - Music:VOLA & THE ORIENTAL MACHINE - Fatal Incident (Please Take My Breath Away)
hmm. I'm... not sure. I can't really remember much I got for my birthday when I was younger, Christmas was always much more awesome.
but... I guess I'd go with my Wii. lol my friend got me it for my birthday 2 years ago, and while I don't play it near enough, mostly due to lack of games and all that, it's like, the best birthday present I've gotten in a long time. C:
but... I guess I'd go with my Wii. lol my friend got me it for my birthday 2 years ago, and while I don't play it near enough, mostly due to lack of games and all that, it's like, the best birthday present I've gotten in a long time. C:
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
calm - Music:A Communication Refusal Desire - VOLA & THE ORIENTAL MACHINE
I would more than likely tell them. unless I felt like being mean at that point in time. XD :3
- Location:my room.
- Mood:
amused - Music:Aira Mitsuki - Sayonara TECHNOPOLiS/Traks Boys rmx
