well.

I still honestly feel no better today

but at least I'm not crying.

*sigh*

still upset and worried, though.

and now I'm kinda stuck on Galaxy... x__X

so I'm... extremely bored. :/ 'cause I dunno what to do, I'm having a hard time with anything I can do. =___=

gah. .__.

I just don't know what to do now. and since the only person I want to talk to won't talk to me, that only makes everything worse. and I wanted art before, and I honestly don't care about it anymore. I'd rather have the person talking to me, forget about drawing me anything. I would still like it, but it's not really important to me anymore.

I'm only posting another entry because I have no one to talk to, nor anything to really do. besides get frustrated with this game.

well. I sure don't feel good today.

I slept for 6 hours because I just didn't know what else to do and I was sad because here I am, freaking out over someone not talking to me.

maybe I'm freaking out for no reason in this case.

but it's sad, as soon as I woke up, I wasn't even awake for 5 minutes, and I just started to cry. I never done anything like that before.

I'd still be sleeping if I could. really, I'm not enjoying being awake too much atm. but I couldn't sleep anymore, no matter how hard I may try.

boy, do I wish someone would just come along and make me feel better...

anyway, in the meantime, to try and feel better, I'm playing more Super Mario Galaxy...

it's getting difficult, but somehow I've managed to make it to the Engine Room... as soon as I get this last star in the Toy Time Galaxy, I suppose I'll have to go on to Bowser Jr.'s Lava Reactor... oh, goodness.

well, considering how I'm trying to always push Polysics on people... YEAH.

and The Aquabats

and... HMM.

uh, well... I love video game music and feel like everyone should listen to the Super Mario Galaxy soundtrack *____*

yep. OwO

WELL.

I feel very... tired.

*sigh*

just when I feel as if things are getting better, it all turns around and they get worse.

WHYYYYYYYYYYY OTL

I can barely deal with this anymore. I feel as if I'm just going insane. or something.

gahhhhhhhhh

anyway

Super Mario Galaxy is like, the best, yet MOST FRUSTRATING game I have ever played. ever. x__X

srsly.

damn Gusty Garden Galaxy... OTL

it's either that or try and finish the Beach Bowl or Ghostly Galaxy. maybe I'll try one of those things later.

but I dunno.

yeah, this was done mostly out of boredom .__.

I'm so tired of being bored and alone :/

UH... what was the last movie I saw in the theater? o__O;;

I think... Wall-E. how sad is that? XD

but... that reminds me, I wanna go see Up... >:

I HOPE TO... VERY SOON

but my aunt doesn't seem interested, the movies she wants to see look retarded to me... :/

and mom won't take me, I know that. ... damn.

I don't really listen to music online often

and if I do, it's on YouTube.

so I pick that. lol

back in the day, I used to use Yahoo! LaunchCast radio, though. I loved that.

ugh, I have been so bored ever since finishing Paper Mario :/

I need some new games to play...

but at least I been in a better-er mood.

I'm just bored now.

and I feel tired and no one's around... maybe I'll sleep for a while. or I can see if my friend Yvonne is online.

hmm.

and so last night, I remembered how cool The Aquabats are. so now I'm listening to them. good stuff, I appreciate it more since it's been a while since I've listened to any of it, I think <3

and that's about it. just felt like writing an entry for some reason.

I don't know who even reads this crap since I never get any comments or anything.

also, I get so annoyed, I keep adding people on MSN, talk to them like, 3-5 times in a week, then after that, they aren't around often or anytime they are, it doesn't matter if I'm online, because they won't talk to me unless I send a message first... :/ I need more good MSN friends. I'm alone a lot of the time, and it's REALLY BORING AROUND HERE *stretches and rolls eyes while saying that*

I like, never use this. 'cept I'm bored now and some of the people I've added as friends seem to post entries kinda often... so then it makes me wanna post, too. I wonder if that's a good thing or a bad thing... but I'll never know.

I don't think anyone will read this, anyway.

and if they do, they won't leave a comment. that just shows how boring I am, I guess.

yay for me.

so, I been bored and moody and tired a lot... but I been trying to play some games, it's been kinda fun. but I get lazy a lot. played and finished MGS3 for the fourth time... and while I was working on that, I picked up Paper Mario 2 again. just finished that the other day, and now I'm playing SMRPG. fun stuff.

but I still want some "new" games... the reason I say "new" like that is 'cause it could be new games for my SNES... meaning ones I don't own or whatever. they're old games, but something new for me to play. yeah.

hmm...

well. I don't really has anything else to say now... .__.

*yawn*

bleh... =___=

damn poupee girl and their June bride event, I didn't think I'd be too interested in much of anything.

I'm not looking forward to the rest of the items D:

lol I haven't posted here in forever

but whatever. I hardly care about lj XD

I post in the poupee girl lj community, though.

but that's about it.

I don't even use my dA journal.

I have no reason to, though. my life is boring lol

and I talk to people so much, I don't see the point.

but I'm posting an entry 'cause I feel like I should :B

yeah. I been playing MGS3 and it's fun. The Fury is cool.

hmm. I can't think of anything else to say... ha ha.

*yawn* well, it's almost 6 am... the time I usually go to sleep... and I'm pretty tired, but I figure I can write a stupid lj entry now XD

hmm. well, yesterday, I wanted to go to the store and get mom a mother's day present, but noooooo. and then later, she left... and went to Wal-Mart and my brother went with her and bought new headphones. now, why couldn't she have taken me to the dollar store? :/

that made me angry...

and then, she buys me flavored water... and half of it is the grape kind. I have told her 3 times to not buy that kind for me anymore and she still does. whyyyyyyyyy OTL

*sigh*

I am so easily irritated lately, though. and I can't seem to be happy with much of anything. bleh :/

and I feel like I just have a million reasons to be depressed like I have been... I'm bored out of my mind, and I just want some new games to play. I got Pokemon Platinum a few weeks ago, that's pretty new... but I don't care about it really .__.

I know I'll play it eventually, though. I wanna get the first Metal Gear Solid game pretty badly... of course, I wanna play MGS4 mostest after watching a walkthrough, but whatever. I've played MGS3... which you can get away with since you play as Big Boss and it has nothing to do with Solid Snake, but now I wanna play the first game, even though I started watching a walkthrough of that... which I need to get back to one of these days. but I'll still wanna play it myself, even if I know everything that happens. I'm just so impatient sometimes so then I do things like that. I do kinda regret watching the walkthrough of MGS4, but I started and just could not stop. I did that over 4 or 5 days and it was actually very interesting and I was not bored at all when I watched it. that game is really cool... though I know I won't be any good at it XD;;

but the whole series interests me so much, even if I am not good at the games, it doesn't stop me. I'm not any good at MGS3, but I play it anyway. and I have fun with it. I really love that game. it is so... not girly XD and before Brawl, I would not have given the Metal Gear Solid series a second thought. when I heard about Snake in Brawl... at first, I did not care. not at all. but then I did the Subspace Emissary, played as Snake and liked him from then on. and I became really good with him. and I thought he was super cool, told my friend Aaron, he started rambling about the MGS series and got me really interested, so much that I had to play a game for myself. and the interest slowly developed into what it is now.

though I'd also like other games... older stuff mostly. I've been wanting to play Yoshi's Cookie lately, too... my favorite puzzle game ever *3* and the only one I'm really any good at.

yesterday was crazy, I changed moods so many times... I'm feeling okay now, but... *sigh*

I just feel like pouting so much of the time, about one thing or another, wanting new games, not being happy with art, being tired of waiting on things, wanting pr0nz, whatever. it sucks, mang. but I feel happy when I talk to friends... well, if they actually seem to care, anyway. like my one friend, I was telling him how bored I was and everything, and he seemed not to care at all since he never said anything about it. and when I told him I feel like no one cares, he's all "don't think I don't care!" and it's like "well, how am I supposed to know? you never say anything to let me know, so I get the feeling you don't." no, I did not say that to him, I told him that no one says anything, so I never know what to think.

yep.

yay, an actual entry not done completely out of boredom! XD

I should be sleeping... is almost 6:30. but AH, WELL. I figure that at least one day of the week I can get away with going to sleep a bit later than usual. XP

hmm. well. I really wish I had motivation to play something... been watching MGS4 playthrough over the past few days and now I really wanna play that... *sigh*

I may have tons of games that I could work on, but I just do. not. care. :/

srsly. I wanna play everything that isn't something I already have. but mostly MGS4. I see myself having fun with that...

yeah.

I've been in a relatively good mood lately... man, I don't know what I'd do without my friends. I would be so depressed and bored and all I'd wanna do is sleep... ugh. like that one week where I was internetless until Thursday.

I wish my mom could understand me better :/

I heard her and my aunt talking about me... and how I apparently never do anything around this house. I may not do cleaning of any sort, but I stay out of everyone's way, make my own dinner most of the time and lots of other things. I still consider that "something". I'd do more if I knew exactly what to do... or if it was possible to be left alone to do anything. I hate other people around me most of the time lately... well, it's different when I'm talking to several different people at once online, just here, I hate when everyone is downstairs and making noise and so I just stay in my room 'cause I never wanna see anyone, anyway. well, I'm angry with my aunt now for talking about me like that. how very rude. she has no right. :/ hmmph.

anyway... hmm. I'm happy, I've pretty much successfully learned Baby BIAS... I love that song :3 fun to sing, I was singing it while I was cooking my dinner LOL

yep...

you know, I think I had more to say, but I am getting very sleepy and have forgotten. so I may not have. but whatever XD

yes, I am bored. waiting for my friend to come back~ XD

...ooh, Commodoll. I love this song<3

hmm. well. I already wrote about being internetless and a bunch of stuff... XD

and I got lyrics for Bye Bye Red Sneaker... ha ha, that song is kinda funny. my friend drew something... lol, red sneaker and then arrow and then recycle bin thingy. XD I should have saved the doodle... lol

so amusing.

hmm, I want art :/

been a while since I've really wanted some as much as I do.

yep.

I so didn't need to write another lj entry yet, but I just kinda wanted to XDD

...and yay, Pony & Lion now! *wiggle, wiggle, wiggle*

ponii to raion hifu ga chigau
ponii to raion yotsuashi hokou ga miryoku

ponii to raion ha ga chigau
ponii to raion tokubetsu yokubarimasen

ponii to raion kiso ga chigau
ponii to raion yonaka ni osoou to ugoku

ponii ha kyou mo ha ga migaku
ponii to raion jissai yokubaritai desu

kaisuuken nara kihon ruuru
nikai san kai otoku ruuru
sore ga ikkaibun mo tsukawazu kippu
yukoukigen kireru shocchau

ponii to raion i toka chigau
ponii to raion ikkai taimen shitai ne

oiru ga nai toki kore kuruma
aniyo ga nai toki kore kuruma



 

goodness.

I can't believe I survived being internetless for almost 6 days. how I did it is beyond me. damn, was I bored.

but... last night was good : D <3

I went out with my aunt... well, firstest, we went to the grocery store, and then we went and just... drove. and got ice cream at Dairy Queen. 8D

and listened to Polysics in her car, which was fun. :3 Modern is such a good song.

I feel awesome, I finally figured out how to play Touhou. I have to use the z key to shoot. man, am I stupid. XD can't believe I didn't figure it out sooner.

anyway, upon learning how to play, I was having fun with it. :3

I only have Perfect Cherry Blossom and Imperishable Night, though. I like Imperishable Night more, I was doing better with it... ha ha. managed to get some bad ending. XD the only bad thing was how my fingers hurted after holding the keys down for so long. it was kinda funny when I was playing Imperishable Night and I was listening to The Aquabats... XD I dunno, but it was funny 'cause like, I was listening to Yo, Check Out This Ride! and... it was just so unfitting and stuff, so it was amusing :B

yeah. hmm...

well, I'm mad about missing 4 dress up days on poupee girl. *sigh*

no 100 ribbon bonus for me at the end of the month... again. damn stupid Comcast... and mom. and... whatever. gahhhhhh.

oh, well. .__. I'll be over it after getting some sleep. maybe. prolly.

ugh... though who knows when that'll be. my sleep schedule is all messed up again 'cause I slept so much 'cause I was bored and depressed -__-;;

but it's okay, I've dealt with it many times before, so this is nothing. XD it's just annoying.

... well. I... wish I had lyrics for BYE BYE RED SNEAKER.

lol, I love that song :3

bye bye red sneaker~

I think Kayo sings that... maybe. *confused*

goodness, I should be sleeping. dammit. XD

it's 9 am... ugh, my sleep schedule is all messed up again... 'cause the other day, I only got 2 hours of sleep, and then yesterday, I slept 4 hours late... and so now today, I'm all messed up... ugh >.<

*sigh* oh, well.

it's okay. it'll just take more adjustment to get back to normal again... gah.

I meant to write an entry last night, but then was doing other stuff, so kinda forgot/stopped caring. so I'm doing it now! XD

uh... now, what was I gonna say... hmm.

oh, yeah.

well, my Easter sucked. XD man, was I tired most of the day... but I forbade myself from sleeping in the middle of the day 'cause I was trying to keep my sleep schedule normal... which obviously didn't work quite as planned. plus I was alone most of the day. blah... and mom didn't get me anything I wanted ;^; besides my pink marshmallow bunnies... which are finally all gone. and now I want more .__.

oh, well. yesterday was a good day, so that made up for really sucky Easter. so did discovering the awesomeness of Kayo's solo album. omg<3 I want her voice D: she has such a beautiful voice... plus she's super adorable >w< <333

I have never obsessed over any girl in any way until now... XD weird... lol.

anyway... here's the PV for Mitsuami Heroine. if only Midoripop de had a PV D: that's my favorite song on the album. but Mitsuami Heroine is really good.  plus, omg she's so cute XD >w< and... I want that dress. irl. and on poupee girl. I'd give up all the rest of my clothes and all my ribbons for it. well... okay, maybe not really. but whatever. XD

today has been a crazy day so far, and it's only 9:30 am! XD

damn.

well, I went out with mom this morning... at 6:30. she wanted to get some stuff for breakfast... which I just finished eating not too long ago. it was yummy. >w<

I am starting to get tired now... bleh. it's real early and it's too quiet, no one's online. ~__~

but I prolly will end up staying awake for another 2 hours or so, 'cause I seem to do that a lot.

I told mom all the stuff I want for Easter when we went to the store... ha ha. they had these huge glittery bouncy balls... omfg they were so awesome. I want a pink one *3*

yeah, umm... well, that new Yo Gabba Gabba that was on on Friday was so awesome, I hope they'll show it again... relatively soon. I loved it so much. ^__^

got Pokemon Platinum yesterday... barely started. I really hardly care... now that I actually have it. I'm gonna be super lazy with it, I'm sure... I'm still mostly addicted to Harvest Moon D: but I'm happy to have it.

hmm... well. uh... gah, I'm so addicted to Polysics. I wanna buy more of their albums *__*

I love Pretty Good. that song is amazing. it's fun to sing, too. but I sound kinda silly singing it ^__^;; mostly 'cause I'm a girl and can't sound like Hiro. lol.

yeah... I just felt like writing an entry... not completely sure why. XD



I found an English translation of the lyrics, it was very interesting to actually know exactly what he's singing about. but it still doesn't really make sense... which is exactly why I love this band. XD <3

man, I don't think I'll ever have motivation to use this thing more often than I do... ~__~

whatever. I'm bored, and only a few minutes till new Yo Gabba Gabba is on, so yay. and then I get to sleep, finally! whoopee.

I am tired, but if I fell asleep earlier, I'd miss out. so I've had to absolutely force myself to stay awake. XD;;

which... has worked out very well, actually. XD

hmm. and... well...

I still want pr0nz OTL

this is sooooooo not fair >___< ;__;

also, my tummy hurts .__.''

ha ha. well. I... am bored.

heh, I wish I could be more dedicated and use one of my 2 journals more often than I do... XD dA or livejournal, don't matter, I rarely use either.

I guess it's more 'cause no one seems to care. if I felt like people cared, I prolly would. but I never get comments on either site, so whatever. okay, actually, sometimes I get a few on dA. but never on here.

whatever...

anyway. well, yesterday, since it's technically Friday... I got my 3 Polysics albums. Now is the time!, We Ate The Machine and 1st P/ADSRM!(they were re-released, together, with bonus tracks.) :B they're awesome. I look forward to when I go visit my grandma again and we can listen to Polysics in her car. it'll be fun.

but the excitement of getting those has really passed. and now I'm back to my usual self... bored, kind of depressed and... whatever. I've felt a little better than usual, though.

gah. I... really want pr0nz. I want someone to draw some for me. OTL too bad I know of no one... well, besides one person, but I doubt I'll ever ask her again, so that doesn't count. *sigh* too bad I ain't lucky to know anyone who might possibly draw anything like that for me. >__<

let's see... umm... well, there ain't much else I could say. hmm. I want some new games to play. well, actually the games I wanna play are older games, but they'd be something new to play since I haven't played them in years.

yep. and that's about it.

edit. lol. oh, one more thing. man, I wish I could get me a frilly pink and white sweet lolita dress. I kind of feel like crying right now... I feel extremely pathetic/unlucky/whatever. fuuuuuuuuuuck. ...srsly. just... fuck. yeah.

I think I'm gonna go to sleep now.

lol, random title thing.

damn, I'm bored.

I want some new games to play~ ;o; or... something. *sighhhhhh*

also, I want pr0nz. lol.

and... uh... I want moar new Yo Gabba Gabba. I'll be so happy when I hear about another week of new premieres. been waiting for... 4 months now, I think. .__.

Weather is definitely the best season 2 episode so far, though. I just love it<333

hmm. I can't think of anything else to say. .__.

oh, well. LOL~

I wish my one friend was on MSN. >:

lol. I'm writing a lj entry at 5 am. what the hell is wrong with me.

whatever, I'm bored, and I actually meant to write one yesterday. even though I only know one person who actually reads it.

anyhoo... uh... well, I'm bored. and starting to get tired. I may go to sleep soon, but then again, I may stay up for another 2 hours or so. I never know, really.

gah... still letting things bring me down, though I'm happy for the moment.

hmm. umm... well, let's see. I can't think of much else to even say... XD

gah, I'm so addicted to poupee girl. o__o;;

at least I found a dress I want, and I should be able to get it soon... as long as someone buys that stupid dress I'm trying to sell, anyway. D:

hooray for saving ribbons for once.

I was having a highly amusing conversation with a friend of mine... if only he was on MSN more often. ha ha. D: definitely one of my favorite people to talk to. :3

I still could use more people to talk to, though. there are times, like now, when I'm alone and bored... .__.''

*sigh* though it's not that bad, really.

woo. I think I'm gonna try and use livejournal more often. not that I really have much to say, though. LOL.

I'm just so bored. gah, why can't people actually be around when I'm bored? ;^;

but they're around when I actually have things to do. XD like, whenever I get a new game to play and I'm trying to work on it, that's when people will be around. I just know it. I'm waiting to test that theory... XDD

though I feel truly happy for the first time in a few days. yay, nothing is bothering me anymore~ wheeeeeeeeee.

but... I'm still really bored. which is kinda not good. ha ha.

well, I can just watch more speed runs in the meantime. and stuff. I'll just wait around for people... like usual. blah...

I need a life. XD

also, I wanna play Metal Gear Solid. :C